Seducing an Old friend

Things have been progressing Much slower this time around, which i suppose is a good thing, past experiences have taught us that things can become overwhelming very easily.
She's met a few new guys, Slept with two so far, one did not work out and she will not be seeing him again, long story short he lied about his relationship status, his "ex" But not really, got suspicious and called my wife's phone wondering what was going on. My wife stance has always been honesty if your married and cheating its fine with her as long as she knows, she likes to be prepared for the potential suspicious wife/girlfriend. the second is promising they had a little lunch date to get to know each other then met once after that very briefly. And i believe they are meeting again with in the next few days.

The real excitement came a few nights ago, She has this Friend who she had asked if she could do him, after some talking about potential issues (him being a friend before hand at all) I agreed. a few months ago she had told him she wanted to suck him off, he was interested but wary being he knows me and nothing about our arrangement. She never did get the opportunity, the other night he stopped by the house to pick something up, (as usual I'm out of town). She had told him "You owe me a kiss for being an ass the other day" (there had been a misunderstanding between the 3 of us about meeting for drinks when i was in town) he leaned down and pecked her on the lips, "No, No , No that won't do" So he leaned down and really kissed her. They went to sit on the couch and she reaches over and starts stroking his cock through his pants, he laughs nervously and she says "Dude you owe me" She unbuttoned her shirt and got down between his legs, she started blowing on his cock through his pants until he unbuttoned them, She licked and sucked and teased for awhile, then handed him her phone took off her pants sat down and threw her legs across his lap, he fingered her for a bit then she said "Now you need to fuck me" he laughed nervously again, she told him i knew about it and that he had to take a few photos for me and fuck her. so he nervously took down his pants and crawled between her legs and Fucked My Hotwife! This was also her first Bareback which turns out to be way hotter than i expected. She was so hot after this wishing i was there to reclaim her. but i couldn't be there, she has another FB thats been dying to get at her lately and i told her to go ahead and set something up, She was gonna get fucked twice by two different guys under 2 hours, But i fucked up! i started feeling a little jealous about how she had seduced her friend, i tried to tell her how i was feeling but i did a lousy job of conveying those feelings, the whole thing was very hot but i got up in my own head and... i fucked up. it didn't turn into a fight but it took an emotional turn and she never did go to meet guy number two. on the bright side i feel like the emotional conversation was very beneficial to me any way. everything happens for a reason and that conversation needed to happen.

HOTWIFE 2.0

Iv said before, This Hotwife lifestyle is constantly changing and evolving. Originally we were both closely involved in choosing her dates, we ... actually, I had a list of rules and lines i didn't want crossed. Looking back it was most likely a strange level of denial, i didnt want to admit how much this was exciting me, i was afraid that by giving her too much freedom she'd end up replacing me, And i was ashamed to admit what i really wanted. so by setting these rules i had a level of control over how far anything went and i wouldn't have to show all my cards. I want her to be my Little Slut, i want her to Crave sex, to need sex, i would love to see her become a Nymphomaniac with little to no Restraint.

I may Be her Daddy, But i let my little slut run free for the most part, She is free to do whomever, whenever she wants as long as she tells me what she's up to. Just yesterday she was teasing one of her Boys through Chat and had gotten herself all worked up. She took video of herself taking care of it and asked if she should send it to some of her other boys. this usually creates a feeding frenzy of chat messages, What i didn't realize was she had sent it to one of our friends, She likes to tease him while we'r out for drinks and watch him squirm uncomfortably. I had an idea that she was interested in him on a sexual level but he was always so proper with her (he doesn't ... Didn't know about our Lifestyle)  That i assumed she probably would never pursue him. well the video was well received I'm sure his head was spinning and they plan on hooking up soon. 2 things really excited me about this particular exchange, 1st i know she was probably very hesitant and worried about my reaction seeing as he's a mutual friend, i am extremely impressed that she took the chance and let her slutty side show, i am also very glad that she's understanding my wishes and position so well, i know these types of requests are hard to accept and sometimes sound too good to be true, and most often we are hesitant to believe the validity of the request, so it really fills me with joy knowing she believes and trusts me enough to take me for my word. and 2nd she went for the friend, i can only imagine what her next brazen slutty move might be, any more friends in the list, what will she do to surprise me Next?

She is taking to being a Hotwife very well and seems to be enjoying herself immensely, Since we'v started back up she's only been able to sleep with one of the men from our previous go around she has however met 3 others one of which scored a hand job and a couple kisses in the parking lot. and one whom although they haven't fucked will probably end up being a regular boy toy. he's already proving to be a bit of a sub and i think she likes dominating him.

well until next time
drop me comment if you have any advice, questions, or requests

Fear vs Jealousy

What is it about sharing her, why does it excite me, i read couple other blogs for example A Hotwife Guide , the basic idea of the blog is a how to guide for single guys to pick up a hotwife, i love the dynamic of this couple, they will go out to a bar or club and she will flirt or dance or whatever and he will watch from a distance usually, sometimes she picks up a guy for a 3 way sometimes she plays alone, but something about this seems fun and exciting. i do like to watch my wife come out of her shell, and thats what makes this strange im normally pretty jealous, but since exploring this lifestyle im discovering its less about jealousy and more about fear,  if i could get over the fear and thats what it is its not really jealousy, although jealousy is one of the emotions that pops up from time to time i can usually work through the jealousy i can talk myself down from there. But the fear, the fear that she'll find someone better, the fear that she'll find she prefers his company over mine. i think i know in my heart that this is stupid, i know our love goes deeper than any fuckbuddy. something i often do is turn the tables on myself, what if she was having these fears, what if i needed to comfort her and convince her she owned my heart, or what if she was filled with enough doubt to fear losing me. and i end up echoing her almost verbatim, i know whats in my heart, i know how tightly i will hold on to her, i know there is almost nothing she could do to make me love her less than i do now, iv never said this out loud but have thought it many times, she could flat out cheat on me, could have fucked half a dozen guys behind my back and i know id be right there giving her my entire heart and soul, i feel like most would read this and call me foolish, but its unconditional love i cant explain it and its a very vulnerable  and sometimes dangerous place to be especially giving yourself to the wrong person in this way. or maybe i am foolish and if thats the case I'm a damn fool but i love my hotwife.

what about you? the people reading this, are you involved in an open marriage, what are your fears, is it unconditional love or is it foolishness? have you ever loved one person so much that they could probably do no wrong and would you let them know?

Our First Meeting!

She flew cross country to see me, our first meeting! I was able to rearrange my work schedule so I could be sure to get to the airport to pick her up. A little background first, I'm an FA (fat admirer) I like Big women, and on some level always have, that's actually how we met. I had finally started to admit to myself that I prefer fat women, I was able to explore and learn through the internet, while surfing around and exploring all the wonderful women of size online I met her, she was much smaller than she is now, in fact she was much smaller then than when we actually met. Anyway she was there as I started to accept my preference (it sounds so horrible to say I had to accept it, but society has such a negative view on weight and size, as a young man growing up, society will have you believe that being attracted to a 300+ pound body is weird and wrong, I can only imagine how terrible it must feel to be the 300+ pound person that society looks down on) anyway I started to embrace this, I stopped caring if I was weird and I started to admire and appreciate all the wonderful shapes and sizes of women, I honestly believe that this negativity toward weight is more of a social construct. But why, the majority of people are overweight, why not make that be the ideal? Probably because the small thin "hot" women are rare so let's make that what everyone strives to be. My wife is 300-330 (she fluctuates;-)), pounds of the sexiest most beautiful woman I have ever laid eyes on, I could go into detail but seeing as I'm probably the only FA here I'll spare you the HOT details.

Shes on her way here to see me! the woman i have spent many nights fantasizing over, the woman who i had dreamed of, but had convinced myself i would never have. like i have said in earlier posts she was my dream girl, my Pam Anderson, My Cheryl Tiegs, I was so nervous my heart was racing, We had gotten to know each other quite well, we talked almost everyday, and now we'r about to meet!

I saw her coming down the escalator before she saw me in fact she looked over me passed me and around me, and i was wearing a pretty noticeable jacket how she was able to miss me i have no idea lol, she was more beautiful than any picture i had ever seen more amazing than any image on my computer screen, it was that awkward/not awkward moment we were meeting for the first time but knew each other so well already, we hugged and it was electric, she was so soft in my arms, her hair smelled amazing. and she was so much more than i ever expected! i told her to wait and i would bring my truck around. i found out later she was hoping and praying i was really coming back, she expected me to jump in my truck and speed away. Her ex had done a serious number on her self esteem sadly and iv spent the last 8 years trying to help her believe she is miles above where she thins she is. i pull up to the curb jump out, grab her bag and open her door, back in the truck i cant take my eyes off of her, I'm awestruck. this is a little hard to explain especially to a non FA but ill try. She had presence, she was substantial, she took up space in the most amazing way. this is not some kind politically correct way to say, OMG SHESSOFAT!, this moment, this observance isn't just about how big she is, it isn't about her weight, or her body, its about the woman i have longed to touch, being there next to me larger than life both figuratively and literally. I have never been able to explain this feeling, this emotion accurately even to her i really think its something only an FA can really understand. or maybe anyone with some type of obsessive attraction might be able to make sense of it. She was There in my Truck! Sitting right next to me! My hand was on her thigh!! I could smell her, Touch her, Hear her, and soon i would taste her!

We stopped to get coffee, and then headed East to the Coast, she wanted to see the Atlantic Ocean. we walked out onto the beach hand in hand she took in the view then turned to me i pulled her close and we kissed! She stopped and said "you can Touch it, i know you want to" (she was referring to her belly) my hand snaked up under her shirt and down into her pants feeling the Round warm softness of her sexy tummy (there are so many sexy features to a women's body and being an admirer of the larger women it doesn't get any better than a sexy tummy) we stood there making out on the beach in the cold march wind, when we had set up this meeting we both agreed we would behave, neither of us were officially divorced yet and we didn't want to rush into something and complicate an already complicated relationship. well... That went straight out the window standing there on the sand locked in an embrace kissing passionately, my hand exploring her soft curves, we both agreed at that exact moment we needed a hotel room. after a little while longer on the beach we jumped back in the truck in search of a hotel. as we drove i noticed her looking out the window,  she had never really seen snow, at least not like we get here and it had been a particularly white winter, she also commented how none of the houses had fences separating the yards and how far apart they were from each other.

Finally at a hotel and in our room i stepped into the bathroom after her to freshen up a bit, my mind racing, do i just starting pawing at her, should i just rip her clothes off, should i rip mine off, maybe she wants to rip mine off, do i play it cool and just kiss her a bit more? when i stepped out of the bathroom there she was completely naked sitting on the bed, and that answered that question, ripping my own clothes off i climbed up onto the bed and laid with her, kissing, touching, licking, not one inch of flesh was left unexplored. In my opinion our first meeting was a mindblowing success! the rest of this week consisted of me finding excuses to get back up to see her at the friends house she was staying at, i cleared my work schedule a few times, i went awol once or twice, we had our first "Date" at Olive Garden. Saying good bye and sending her home was the worst, we didn't know where wed end up from here but i knew for a fact she owned my heart the moment she stepped off that escalator at the airport. I just recently traveled through that airport again and it was an incredible walk down memory lane although they have  since renovated the bench where we took our first pic together is still there!!