Shes on her way here to see me! the woman i have spent many nights fantasizing over, the woman who i had dreamed of, but had convinced myself i would never have. like i have said in earlier posts she was my dream girl, my Pam Anderson, My Cheryl Tiegs, I was so nervous my heart was racing, We had gotten to know each other quite well, we talked almost everyday, and now we'r about to meet!
I saw her coming down the escalator before she saw me in fact she looked over me passed me and around me, and i was wearing a pretty noticeable jacket how she was able to miss me i have no idea lol, she was more beautiful than any picture i had ever seen more amazing than any image on my computer screen, it was that awkward/not awkward moment we were meeting for the first time but knew each other so well already, we hugged and it was electric, she was so soft in my arms, her hair smelled amazing. and she was so much more than i ever expected! i told her to wait and i would bring my truck around. i found out later she was hoping and praying i was really coming back, she expected me to jump in my truck and speed away. Her ex had done a serious number on her self esteem sadly and iv spent the last 8 years trying to help her believe she is miles above where she thins she is. i pull up to the curb jump out, grab her bag and open her door, back in the truck i cant take my eyes off of her, I'm awestruck. this is a little hard to explain especially to a non FA but ill try. She had presence, she was substantial, she took up space in the most amazing way. this is not some kind politically correct way to say, OMG SHESSOFAT!, this moment, this observance isn't just about how big she is, it isn't about her weight, or her body, its about the woman i have longed to touch, being there next to me larger than life both figuratively and literally. I have never been able to explain this feeling, this emotion accurately even to her i really think its something only an FA can really understand. or maybe anyone with some type of obsessive attraction might be able to make sense of it. She was There in my Truck! Sitting right next to me! My hand was on her thigh!! I could smell her, Touch her, Hear her, and soon i would taste her!
We stopped to get coffee, and then headed East to the Coast, she wanted to see the Atlantic Ocean. we walked out onto the beach hand in hand she took in the view then turned to me i pulled her close and we kissed! She stopped and said "you can Touch it, i know you want to" (she was referring to her belly) my hand snaked up under her shirt and down into her pants feeling the Round warm softness of her sexy tummy (there are so many sexy features to a women's body and being an admirer of the larger women it doesn't get any better than a sexy tummy) we stood there making out on the beach in the cold march wind, when we had set up this meeting we both agreed we would behave, neither of us were officially divorced yet and we didn't want to rush into something and complicate an already complicated relationship. well... That went straight out the window standing there on the sand locked in an embrace kissing passionately, my hand exploring her soft curves, we both agreed at that exact moment we needed a hotel room. after a little while longer on the beach we jumped back in the truck in search of a hotel. as we drove i noticed her looking out the window, she had never really seen snow, at least not like we get here and it had been a particularly white winter, she also commented how none of the houses had fences separating the yards and how far apart they were from each other.
Finally at a hotel and in our room i stepped into the bathroom after her to freshen up a bit, my mind racing, do i just starting pawing at her, should i just rip her clothes off, should i rip mine off, maybe she wants to rip mine off, do i play it cool and just kiss her a bit more? when i stepped out of the bathroom there she was completely naked sitting on the bed, and that answered that question, ripping my own clothes off i climbed up onto the bed and laid with her, kissing, touching, licking, not one inch of flesh was left unexplored. In my opinion our first meeting was a mindblowing success! the rest of this week consisted of me finding excuses to get back up to see her at the friends house she was staying at, i cleared my work schedule a few times, i went awol once or twice, we had our first "Date" at Olive Garden. Saying good bye and sending her home was the worst, we didn't know where wed end up from here but i knew for a fact she owned my heart the moment she stepped off that escalator at the airport. I just recently traveled through that airport again and it was an incredible walk down memory lane although they have since renovated the bench where we took our first pic together is still there!!
