Sunday, May 25, 2014

Our first 3 way

She has entertained a number of fantasies for me, and up until recently she has been very tight lipped about any of hers. Finally got her to open up and spill it, one is to have two guys at the same time, so after a failed attempt or two of getting the second man into the equation it finally happened last night. It was with "John" the same guy from her first date, that have since met one other time. I had actually met him once before, over a couple beers although that first meeting was a bit awkward it wasnt bad just awkward, i suppose meeting new people is often sometimes awkward, add to this equation that he had already slept with her twice and that can make for a mildly awkward situation. This meeting went much smoother, i had been in touch with him through text about a month ago, letting him know I really wanted to let her have this fantasy and also assuring him i was 100% ok with it. Both John and My wife had done something like this in the past, this was a total first for me but whats funny is they were both far more nervous than i was. i think my wife was mostly concerned for me, she was afraid i wouldnt enjoy it, or was afraid it would end up being too much, iv mentioned a few times in previous posts that im usually the jealous type. Honestly though as iv learned since embarking on this adventure with my wife, 1- communication is key, and 2- when im on board and i know whats about to happen i can keep everything in check. This night was about her and her fantasy, i asked her not to worry about me and to please not get too wrapped up in her head about her concerns for me, i needed her to enjoy this, i needed her to be able to let go and enjoy herself. 

We met john in the bar of the hotel, he had already ordered a beer and a burger,  he stood to greet us she grabbed him for a kiss and he awkwardly kissed back like a brother kissing his sister im sure because i was there (i know they have kissed, i know they have had sex, but for him the act of kissing her in front of me was strange i guess,  I dont know if it was because i had mentally prepared for this but i was shockingly ok with it, i also took his hesitance with the kiss as a sign of respect he knows this is all a first for me and hes being careful not to overstep any bounds.) she sat next to him and i  beside her She order a shot of Patron and a Malibu and coke, I ordered a Jack Daniels double on the rocks, while we sat and talked, she reached up and held his hand, her other hand on my thigh rubbing and squeezing, she was enjoying having both of her lovers on either side of her. after a couple more drinks he headed out for a smoke, She went out to talk to him she could tell he was nervous and wanted to assure him everything was cool. i sat at the bar finishing my drink, i could see them outside the main lobby doors talking, her arms around his waist he holding her close they talked and laughed (this scene would normally cause jealousy) as i watched them together all i could do was smile. this arrangement has forced us to communicate far more honestly than we ever had, I am far more secure in our relationship than i ever had been before. as they came back into the lobby i met them just outside the entrance to the bar, and we headed for the elevator. 

How do you start somethig like this? im the new guy in this situation they both have past experiences, she headed off to the bathroom to "freshen Up", john and i talked a bit waiting (in hindsight it probably would have been a good idea to talk about what was about to happen, maybe get a gameplan together, maybe reasuure him im good with this). She comes out of the bathroom Sans pants, Ice Broken!! she comes over to me we embrace and kiss, deep pasionate kisses my hands begin wandering all over her magnificant body, John comes up behind her kissing the back of her neck hands running down her back along her hips,  he slips down to his knees kissing her beautiful round ass, as we continue to make out, from this point on i can only tell you what i was doing and what i was able to catch when i looked up from my duties, yes duties there was an amazing beautiful woman who needed as much attention from each one of her lovers as possible, this entire night was about her, her pleasure, her fantasy, her desires. John and I started with her breasts each one of us sucking, kissing and nibbling. my hand ventured down between her legs, already incredibly wet, i can only imagine what the anticipation of this moment must have been like for her. Her loving devoted Husband and her knew found Boytoy both naked, both servicing her. i kissed a gentle trail across her belly finding my way to her sweet pussy, one of my favorite ways to pleasure her licking and nibbling gently teasing her clit, while john worships her amazing breasts. she cums fairly soon i slip a couple fingers ito her reaching for her g-spot, she takes john into her mouth, playing with his balls as i lick her clit and rub her g-spot, she cums again squirting this time. taking things to extremes i slowly work the rest of my hand into her, she enjoys being filled and although it can cause her to be sore for a day or two it always makes for some intense orgasms, and tonight is the night i want her to experience the most intense orgasms shes ever had. Johns Cock in her Mouth and my fist in her pussy my free hand rubbing her clit, johns hands squeezing and playing with her big tits, she starts riding my fist, Moaning louder and louder she cums again, i cant resist any longer and just as this orgasm subsides i enter her, Making love to my wife while she kisses another man is definitely something i never thought id experience, and to be honest i certainly dont hate it the look on her face the way her eyes roll back in her head i could see she was enjoying this to max, I want to let her have this again. we cum together this time! at somepoint  John had backed off and was standing nearby stroking his cock. i crawled back up the bed and made out with my wife, i think the first experience was a success, theres a few things that good have gone better, but for the most part she thouroughly enjoyed herself and i will make a point of letting her have multiple lovers again! 



Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Fear vs Jealousy

What is it about sharing her, why does it excite me, i read couple other blogs for example A Hotwife Guide , the basic idea of the blog is a how to guide for single guys to pick up a hotwife, i love the dynamic of this couple, they will go out to a bar or club and she will flirt or dance or whatever and he will watch from a distance usually, sometimes she picks up a guy for a 3 way sometimes she plays alone, but something about this seems fun and exciting. i do like to watch my wife come out of her shell, and thats what makes this strange im normally pretty jealous, but since exploring this lifestyle im discovering its less about jealousy and more about fear,  if i could get over the fear and thats what it is its not really jealousy, although jealousy is one of the emotions that pops up from time to time i can usually work through the jealousy i can talk myself down from there. But the fear, the fear that she'll find someone better, the fear that she'll find she prefers his company over mine. i think i know in my heart that this is stupid, i know our love goes deeper than any fuckbuddy. something i often do is turn the tables on myself, what if she was having these fears, what if i needed to comfort her and convince her she owned my heart, or what if she was filled with enough doubt to fear losing me. and i end up echoing her almost verbatim, i know whats in my heart, i know how tightly i will hold on to her, i know there is almost nothing she could do to make me love her less than i do now, iv never said this out loud but have thought it many times, she could flat out cheat on me, could have fucked half a dozen guys behind my back and i know id be right there giving her my entire heart and soul, i feel like most would read this and call me foolish, but its unconditional love i cant explain it and its a very vulnerable  and sometimes dangerous place to be especially giving yourself to the wrong person in this way. or maybe i am foolish and if thats the case I'm a damn fool but i love my hotwife.

what about you? the people reading this, are you involved in an open marriage, what are your fears, is it unconditional love or is it foolishness? have you ever loved one person so much that they could probably do no wrong and would you let them know?